my feeling for now is really sad. damn damn sad. only bestie knows why :) thanks for those who tried to cheer me up. thanks dear dear for listening to me. THANKS :)

today went cwp to see s.h.e. supposedly meet 11 but all didnt reply me so i went to sleep. 11+ woke up and see none of them reply me yet. then cher and song texted me. tot they reach le so i jumped out from bed and replied them. called elf, malek and william. and all of them still slping. malek didnt pick up. then we met 1245 instead. song reached first followed by me. skipped all the details. then we went starbuck study till 7+. van van came to find us after her achery comp. her arm was injured man. get well soon dear :) went food court makan with cher and vanvan while jason william and angus went off to yishun to cut their hair. chem haven study die. :( im so no mood to study anything. and work tomorrow. :((((

i shouldnt have made myself to fall deeply. i shouldnt have think so much that i really like you now. whenever i saw u chatting with them, it brings me back to the past. seeing so many topics that u have with them and non with me really very sucky. i mean nothing to u. but u mean everything to me. maybe is just a crush like what they said, maybe i should not carry on and should not pin too much hope. i should stop myself to sms to chat with you. you make me forget past and yet i have to forget you now. i hate to be in the same group as you. i hate to be in same class as you. i hate to know you for the begining. i hate my life now! first sem in poly is like this, thought second sem will be better but im wrong. how i wish and hope i never ever know you be4.

dearest meimei :

cheer up ! this might be the toughest stage to walk, hope u can get over this stage soon and be the happy cheryl we knew :) we are here for you! LOVE. jiayou jiayou . SMILE BABY <3

movie with w15p after sch. van van left us for her archery briefing. left 5 of us, jason, zuan walked over to cwp. lingling, pris and jes went home. me cher jason and zuan went to kfc. after discussion, we decided to catch movie first. saw william and sam's cousin outside kfc. talked with them awhile and heeded to threate. i tot cinema at lvl 6 cause i saw "carpark" as "cinema" -.- saw amy at banquet, she waiting for cia they all to catch poker king. we decided on "merantau warriors" after 15159235 mins. LOL! biao ge rushed to join us from sch. and we are late for the show. lucky biaoge managed to reach be4 the show starts :)

this show was a bit bored half way though. but it got excited when the main male actor went to save the main male actress. me and cher was like laughing and shaking our legs cause it was damn cold and damn exciting. we laughed cause the ang moh actor reaction damn funny! finished up the whole packet of pop corn myself cause cher baby dont wanna eat. i wanted more sweet pop corn than salty pop corn but that staff gave me the opposite way -.- almost choke while watching cause of the pop corn >.< LMAO!

home sweet home after movie cause cher baby going town to find her sisters. cheer up babe! <3

BIG news !

jeslin tan huiyi joined us go eat after school for the first time! spell H-A-P-P-Yyyyy :D saw biao ge walking passed one stop centre after we girls came out from toilet. dragged him along to take cab with us. is raining damn heavily la! so we divided to 2 cabs - me, jes and pris. another cab is cher, xin and biao ge. wanted to go pizza hut but no more student meal so we changed our plan to yoshinoya. 2 more mintues before student meal stop. ordered salmon meal + grape soda for like $4.95 only! weets. budget ya. crap and laughed like mad because that auntie xinling's reaction and everything. she really brighten our days man :) jes went to meet her bro, xin went home and biao ge went home too. so me and cher baby went to our usual place again - civic starbuck <3

slept for awhile after my grp presentation. group with xin baby, william, ch and yany was great because ch solved the problem statement damn fast and he divided the tasks to us. and once again i did the least impt stuff. phy UT after sch. and i knew die le. confirm guarrante plus chop DIEee... haiz. chem, bio and math UTs next week. jiayou!

wanted to partial this morning but still i came to sch. spell G-U-A-I :) met the usual peeps to walk to school tgt. today only me, sam, irene and jh. dick didnt come to sch and xian late. as usual, dont feel like doing work today. i missed "O" levels time because after exams have such a long period of holidays which i terribly need it now :( cog ut ystd, pretty ok hope can at least get a C ba? tml phy ut. D-I-Eeeee ... gonna stay in class with my girls to study for phy. JIAYOU <3 my grp ppt haven even start when like few mintues before 130. quickly asked around for ppt and we just combined few slides together and yeah our ppt done-de :D watched those videos at FB of FBFG. suddenly feel sad. just let it be and continue be crazy with u peeps?

Question Yourself

WHOEVER READS THIS MUST ANSWER AND DO IT TRUTHFULLY!!
IF NOT UR NIGHTMARE WILL EAT YOU!!

1. What is your favourite food?

fast food because it is fast :D

2. What is your most hated food?

erm. Don’t really have hated food cause I love to eat! =D

3. What is your favourite colour?

-pink and blue 

4. What's my favourite hobby?

slacking. Joking around with bitches and jerks <3

5. What do you hate most?

poly life!!!!

6. Whats' troubling you now?

UT1. r/s? friendship

7. What's your ideal partner?

caring. And more ..
8. What would you name your daughter?

never really think of it.

9. What would you name your son?

any nice name to intro ?

10. Is there someone you like now?

yesss ..

11. Who are you think of right now?

same person.

12. What if your best friend wanted to invade a country and asks you to join him/her in their conquest for world domination?

lets go bestie! 

13. What if you figured someone that you like has a crush on you?

I will tell him I like him too. But I know this is impossible.

14. How would you describe myself?

happy go lucky,

15. Left or right?

right.

16. Commitments?

earning more money. Family. Friends.

17. What's the ideal height for your partner?

erm 170-175?

18. What is your ideal age for your partner?

not really as long as not older or younger than me by 5 years old? Feelings that matters :D

19. What would you sacrifice for your partner?

everything and anything!

20. What's your religion?

buddhism

21. Have you ever hugged anyone?

mum, dad, sis, bitches 

22. Have you ever kissed anyone?

mum, dad, sis.
23. Have you ever held anyone's hand?

yeah, always to my bitches <3

24. Name 10 people you are thinking about?

sam.doris.irene.xian.dick.jh.lou.xinling.jes.cher.van.pris ( yeah, im very typical auntie as im thinking more than 10 people)

25. Name 5 people that just talked to you

cher,van,mum,sis,dad

26. Are you stressed?

Yes yes yes! Will feel stress for period of time each month 

27. What do you hope to be in the future?

good wife and mother 

28. Have any good friends?

what are good friends meant? Yes! FBFG, 5 girls. 

29. Made out in a lift before?

omg! Of course nooooo

30. Have you ever jumped off a cliff?

noooo . but feel like, joking :P

31. Skydiving or bungee jumping?

SD

32. Name 5 qualities you want your partner to have

caring, big heart, love me for who I am, cherish me, loyal.

33. Have you ever broken someone's heart?

yes and I’ve learnt my mistake.

34. Have you ever felt that your heart was torn into pieces?

yup.

35. Favourite time you ever had..

time with FBFG, 5 girls + 7 guys . many more …

36. Greatest dream you ever had

hmm. Be with the one I love? I forgot.

37. Who do you think of everyday?

not meant to say out.

38. What do you do when you are upset?

emo-ing one side, listen to emo songs. And feel like dying.

39. When was the last time I cried?

hmm. Recently?

40. Favourite song/band?

S.H.E

41. Books or activites?

activities. I’m not bookworm!

42. Where would you take your first date to?

Never really think about it.

43. What is something that you want your partner to have/ to do?

stay happy and be there for me :D

44. Write 5 things you want to someone / say.

im tired.
I love you.
Wanna change course.
I hate poly life.
I don’t want to work.

45. What's your CCA?

pri sch : Chinese dance. Choir ( but never get in )
sec sch : npcc
poly: SA

46. What's the scariest thing that you've experienced?

losing the one I love.

47. Who do you have a crush on now?

never say out expect to those im close with.

48. What is your most hated genre(movie/books)?

idk

49. List 5 things that's going through your mind 5 minutes ago.

quiting poly.
Stop working.
Telling that particular someone.
Im tired.
I hate this sem passed so fast.

50. 10 things you would like your partner to have/be
Love me for who I am!
Loyal!
Care for me!
Honest!
The other 6 things will think again.

today reached class and went to adjust the curtain. redzuan tot im gg to pull up. and he said dont pull la. then i replied i never say i want to pull right. and ya he's angry. sorry. then after first break, suddenly someone kicked our class door and saw zuan walked in, and he diao me when he walked in. behind him is malek. and then we said sure is malek added smth which make zuan pissed off. then zuan told cher that malek told him that i scolded cb on him because he saw my mouth moving -.- WTF LOR! EVEN IF SCOLD ASO NOT SCOLD ANY OF MY CLASSMATE EXPECT FOR YOU ! and i can swear that i didnt scold that to zuan . and i never tot that u will back stab me! lucky i didnt apologise to zuan beforehand if not he really will tot i scolded him cb. if not me and zuan will quarrel like hell. and in the end you will be the one who win. and you still can tell cher that u did nth and u are not involved in anything or whatever de. still can act somemore!! wth !! talked to him during second break. and he freaking cried again -.- WHAT A GUYYYY! zuan damn pissed off. and gave him a kick. me cher stopped him. and ya we 2 and elf almost kena beat by him aso. BE A MAN, DONT CRY WHENEVER WE TALK TO YOU, AND ADMIT WITH WHAT U SAID OR WHATEVER U'VE DONE. STOP SPOILING FRIENDSHIPS BETWEEN ANY OF US.! we treated u as classmate but if you continue to be like this, dont blame us for anything that will happen but yourself!





yesterday after school didnt stay at class for revision, went to kbox instead >.<>and we wasted at least half an hour sitting at the taxi stand without doing anything. and already 4+ le by the time we reach amk will be 5pm+ and we are left with 1 hr+ to sing which is damn not worth it. just when we are about to walk to mrt station, there's this 7 seaters cab came -.- so we boarded and we had lots of fun in the cab. esp our jason, he so funny la! he wanted to switch on the lights but he cant cause the controller is infront of the driver there. :) and uncle charged us $9.60 only instead of $11.60. thanks uncle and sorry for making so much noise in ur cab. LOL :) went to mac to eat first and we had a great talk :) went to kbox finally :) and that song lost his nets card. =X 7-10 but we 945 went off le. cause xin and cher darlings rushing back home. reached home 10+ started to chiong rj at about 1110. omgggg . damn tired but had a great day with darlings :)<3>

UT 1 is comingggg yet i totally dont feel like doing revision for it =X many things happened.

u all close is no problem is just that u all really like left the rest of us out expect for her. im not jealousing or what. is just that... erm .. i love all of u. i know that i now seldom meet up with u guys after school or even during second break. because i felt really like there's a gap btw me and u all. no longer will look forward to second break or after school. maybe is because different class le and many after school ce things plus end class different timing.

why arent u understand? dont u get it? haiz. why we dont have so many things to chat about like me and him? why arent u the one? i totally dont have the mood to study :(

msn with irene. is it my problem? is it that i think too much?
haiz. what happened? is just that u guys always said "nothing, is inside jokes inside jokes" then just be it lor.

damn hungry now. hungry hungry hungryyyyyyy ... and im too tired for everything ...

wednesday went to withdraw money during first break. and you know what?! theres no money in my bank!! left $20.01 nia! omg.. and left like 10 days for my pay day -.- all thanks to the $25 lab coat !! lucky dad gave me $100 the next day if not i really can eat air le. :) UT 1 coming soon ... 5th nov die .. how can i earn more money ???!!! :( i need moneyyyy ...